Endless Un-serenity.

Gosh.

What a great thing.

Open my blog to discover some f***** spamming my blog.

If i ever fine out who that person is i'm gonna screw his ba*ls up.

With, a SCREWDRIVER.

I swear, things aren't going right.

Would someone make things better?

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Please?

Equation: MOM = Cocksuck*r

F****** mom.

F*** her f****** mother cheeb**.

I can't stand the f*** outta her.

A shotgun would be nice. But i'd prefer to set fire to her.

ALIVE.

Maybe like from the feet up.

Let the fire slowly burn her.

Wah f***.

This post is 100% free of sharp objects.

Gosh. I'm really screwed up.

Nicole. Thanks for today anyway. I'm glad you still talk to me.

Nonetheless, like nicole phrases her math paper, i'll phrase my chinese:

I GOT F***** BY MY CHINESE PAPER!

Tentacle rape.

Gosh.

Ok, i realised....i didn't bleed from the mouth.

I bled from the nose, but it flowed down into my mouth.

Still sick nonetheless...

Ok. my hands are trembling now. If only i had you in my arms.

Why does everything go dull out of a sudden?

Ok, my head hurts. Things suck.

I wrote 154 words for chinese compo.

TRIED TO SLEEP but some bloody assholes couldn't let me.

But there were some people there i'd really give up that sleep for.

And, i sort of did.

F*** man, i can't BELIEVE how i screwed up chinese.

And louisa said it was easy. I must be either this great f***** or a goner.

And how the f*** do you embed youtube videos?

Never mind.

Wah cheebye head is f****** pain. F***.

Sorry xiao mei. I know i made you crazy much.

I'm 0% damaged. So you guys please relax.

I have to end here. My head iis spinning to much.

The blog is a knife. It cuts deep into the soul.

This is the aftermath.

The aftermath of a certain www.diornikkie.blogspot.com.

How in less than 2 minutes, a guy turns suicidal.

It's weird, how even history could be such a weapon.

When time catches up in the wind, brings everything back up.

It's like leaves in autumn.

I shouldn't have mentioned "leaves".

Why does it hit me so badly?

Does anyone know why this space in my heart never moves on?

*Sigh. So much for asking.

It's always the blog that hits me so badly.

No matter how much i try, i fall.

If i only had a second chance.

I would make sure, even if its only a minute. I would make things pure.

Make sure every second is worth her lifetime.

I can't let go. I really can't.

If fate wants it this way, fate can have it.

I surrender the fight. I'll hit the crosswinds, and see where the future takes me.

I surrender. You win. I'm not strong enough.

My...past, my present, my future. It's yours.

To the blogmaster of www.diornikkie.blogspot.com.

It's raining fire on me...

Hi.

I dunno what to say.

It's like blogging for the sake of it.

*sigh.

Life can never be more colourful...

My blog needs help. The postmaster is crashing everyday.

In other words, i'm sort of dying a bit everyday.

Let me check......

A cat has 9 lives,

A tortoise.....needs a life...

Me? Lives left: -32billion.

Booom.

There you have it. Trying to climb a cactus without a ladder.

*Sigh.

I've hurt motherloads of people in the last 24 hrs or so.

Starting with myself.

Then...should i mention names?

Ok....i shouldn't.

Nonetheless. It really shouldn't have happened at all.

I'm sorry guys. Really am.

If there's anything you would want me to do to change. i will.

Even if it means jumping from the 3rd storey.

Well, i mean, people have survived such a jump.....

Anyway. Today was such a.....blank day.

Spent almost the whole bloody morning speaking to....never mind.

Not mentioning names again. Rest assured its nobody from our school.

Gosh. i wonder how i'm gonna swim later....

Never mind.....

No wait, really, how?

It's a bit obvious when i remove the bandage.

*Removes bandage....

Yeah! It's bloody obvious!

Shoot....shoot....shoot.....anyone has ideas?!

*@)!)#^#&!

Someone help me.

If i, kissed you... would it be so hard?

Hi.

Another post.

Yay.

I've got loads of things to get off my chest now.

Pretty personal, so...i'm keeping it to myself.

Firstly. Nicole, if you read this, how are you?

I want to know.

My throat still sucks. Bleeds all the time, though much better already.

*Thanks for the flowers...sob, sob...

I dunno what else to say.

Erm....today's math thing went bad.

Science was awesome...i hope.

I hope you guys didn't think i screwed up the performance.

(Please tell if you think we do.)

Trying to get my head clear. It keeps blocking up with some personal events.

They're not light. Try a mega-hard drive full of Trojan_horse.exe.

It's sucks. I would kill myself if i lived slightly higher.

And there's this mutiliation group. Can't you just let go of me?

Please?

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I sort of killed tonia's hand in V-ball. Sorry.

I really wanna kill myself now.

*Get off my head!

Sorry. Trying to fix myself.

The flashbacks hurt ok? Hurts where it matters most.

I really dunno what to do now.

Last bits' a load personal. Please don't read unless you're involved.

I need to get this off my chest.

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NICOLE. I REALLY DON'T KNOW WHAT DO SAY. PLEASE TELL ME YOU'RE ALRIGHT. I'M NOT. I REALLY WANT YOU TO BE FINE. THERE ARE MANY THINGS I REALLY WANT TO SAY TO YOU, BUT I CAN'T. I JUST CAN'T.




OK. I'LL TRY TO SAY IT. NICOLE...

- THE LAST BITS FOR ONLY ONE PERSON. Please don't read any further.

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I LOVE YOU. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH I'D SCREAM MY HEART OUT. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH, EVEN TILL NOW. I'M CRYING EVERY NIGHT THINKING OF YOU. I LOVE YOU. I REALLY LOVE YOU SO MUCH.


BUT WE JUST CAN'T BE TOGETHER. I WISH THINGS WOULD CHANGE.

I LOVE YOU. YESTERDAY, TODAY, TOMORROW, FOREVER.

I HOPE YOU WILL REMEMBER THAT.

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I need a knife now. i can't take it anymore. i wanna kill myself right now.

Cruizerdude.

(Male cruizer scouting hot female age 13-15)

I haven't blogged in a while. recent events have driven me crazy.

My mom might just burst in too, so it's kind of scary.

There's not much i wanna report, loads of them are best not remembered.

Ok, shit, mom coming.

On Hold

I'll blog in a while...